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Hush hush ; There is no other way , I get the final say !
And yea , Get Your Fucking Mind Clear Of This ; I Am A Proud Girl And So What ?!
Fuck Those Who Goes OMG ~ Over Some Silly Stuffs !


And This Is Why You Get Me So Addicted ..

曾经读过一本书 。书上这样写着

要是一个男孩不懂得如何珍惜他的家人 ，那么那男孩不值得你去爱 。因为连自己的家人都不懂得如何珍惜的男孩 ，你要如何指望他会珍惜你呢 ？
虽然我还是如此地深爱着你而且是有增无减 ，但是我却感到一丝丝的失望和不解 。不了解你的不解 。忽然间觉得 ，似乎我根本就不了解你 …

Labels: and you're dota-iin again

Handphone kana stolen ! Damn ! asshole ! Lost the whole of my contact list & pictures .. Do you damn fucking know how important are these to me ?! Damn asshole ! Messaged my phone with Scotty's handphone but doubt the THIEF will care !

Damn .. Losing my phone at this period of time really SUX ! I mean it is already like end of March man ! School is starting & ... Yah la ! Fuck man !

Told Scotty about part of the reasons on why I can't lose this number .. The reason will be a secret & guess what he said ? " You really believe his words & wait for him ah "

Ohgosh ! My darling is actually jealous ! And trust me , he looks cute when he is jealous ! And Becky asked him out for dinner today .. Seriously , never mind .. =.=

Labels: ass, She have a 'B' so do I

去了末位故人的 Blog 。其实这段期间真的 ，一直想起他 。

对于他 ，自己心里面的感情是复杂的 。
有感激 ；有歉意 ；有不舍 ；而更多的是后悔 …

• 感激他对我的一切 ，感激他在我最需要的时候总是会在我背后
• 对不起不能够报答他 ，对不起在他需要人的时候我却不能和他一样地站在他身后
• 不舍得他独自面对了那么多 ，不舍得他总得笑着流泪
• 后悔自己认识过他 ，更多的是后悔自己那么自私自利

自己欠他的真的好多好多 ，不论是物质上还是其它 … 有好几次和 Scotty 吵架 ，第一个想要投诉的便是他 。

Labels: 对不起 ，我好想你 。只想问你一句 - 最近过的好吗

Mysterious... oftentimes, a loner. You know your true friends and only them are allowed to understand the real you.

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You love deeply... you may flirt along and people think you’re a playboy/playgirl but the truth is: your heart belongs to only one.

You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!

You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend... You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!:

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深秋的一天，叶子温柔地吻了吻树，低声说：树，我要离开了

离开？！树惊愕：可我们是一起经历了春天的明媚，夏天的灿烂，秋天的浪漫，形影不离地才走到今天啊！你怎么能这样忍心弃我而去？难道是我做错了什么吗？

叶子凄然：不！但我不得不离开了。只是过了冬天，你还会记得我吗？

树的心在刺痛，它挣扎着努力弯曲它那坚挺笔直的躯干，惊得栖鸟四散，折断的树枝散落一地，只是想让叶子看到他坚定的点头

一阵感动蔓延全身，树的坚定给了弱小的叶子无比的幸福和勇气。 叶子深情地望了树最后一眼，猛然咬断了叶茎，永远离开了那个宽厚温暖、一年来无时无刻不关怀倍至的怀抱
别了！
虽然只是一个小小的动作，却已经用尽了叶子全身的力量，她虚弱无助地飘向地面

不！你还来不及听我说爱你！ 树痛彻心扉，却无力挽回，只能眼睁睁看她渐渐远离

树，要记得我……叶子的声音仿佛来自天际
这一刻，树突然明白，真正的哀痛，是连泪水，都流不下来的

一阵秋风路过，不忍看见树的悲伤，用身体轻轻拖起叶子，想送她回到树的身边 叶子摇头：
冬天的树是很脆弱的，如果我不离开，为了照顾我，他是无法安然度过冬天的。只要他心里有我，够了

风默然，恍惚间眼前那微微发黄光鲜不再的叶子看上去却是另一种的柔美
叶子拒绝了风的扶持，在空中转了两圈跌落到地面，只留下一道悲伤的弧线 终
于明白叶子掉落时的翻转，是因为不舍树的挽留
叶子带着对树的爱、依恋和祝福离开了

风含着泪，把那浓稠的哀伤带向四方
或许正因此，我们总能在秋天感觉得到一种莫明的离愁
整个冬天，树都寂静地沉默 往日的活力已烟消云散 剩下的只有憔悴和无尽的感伤

原来，想念一个人，是这样的撕心裂肺，却喊不出声
冬天的第一场雪，下得纷纷扬扬 大雪染白了天地，覆盖了一切
树把自己藏到了大雪之下
整个冬天，树抵挡住了冬的严寒，却抵挡不住对叶子深深的思念
今年的冬天却象过了一整年那样漫长

终于，春天拖着她姗姗来迟的步伐温暖了整片树林
树却依旧闭着眼，无动于衷
如果睁开眼，满目所及，都是昔日和叶子一起的快乐时光
如今，叶子已经不再，不如就此不再睁开

不知过了多久，树的身边忽然绽放出了一朵娇艳的不知名的小花
花很美丽，每天都有成群结队的蝴蝶在她身边飞舞
可她却孤傲冰冷，全然不为之动心 唯独，她对树却是另一种的温柔 每天都陪着树，谈天，唱歌，为他排解心中的愁绪

她娇小柔弱的身躯和似水的温柔都仿佛是昔日的叶子
她的出现，多少减轻了些许树的绝望
树一直不知道她的名字，只是叫她花，美丽的花

几个月过去了，树渐渐比往日多了些笑容
一日，风又路过，看到花对树的亲昵样子，摇头叹息：人世间的情感亦不过如此，不过一个冬天，树就把叶子遗忘了

树摇头：不！谁都无法替代叶子在我心中的位置
花听了，若有所思地沉默，不再有往日的欢声笑语
树心中也隐约愧疚，如果没有叶子，或许他会爱上花的
只是，叶子，已经成为他今生的挚爱，谁都无法取代了……

几天后，花终于开口问树：树，叶子比我漂亮吗？
树：不，她没有你美丽
花：那叶子有象我一样的芳香吗？
树：不，你的芳香和艳丽都是她无法比拟的
花：既然是这样，你为什么不能忘了她，而来爱我呢？
一丝苦涩的笑浮现在树的嘴角：花，即使叶子变的枯黄，干涩，甚至凋零、消逝，她永远都是我的叶子，我无法忘记
一行热泪从花的脸庞滑落：树，我真幸福，你真的没有忘了我！
树愕然！ 他仔细看着眼前的花，这段时间他从来没有仔细观察过花的模样 花留泪的样子，居然和当年的叶子一模一样
一瞬间，树恍然大悟：落叶并非无情物，化作春泥更护花 他紧紧拥抱住花，深情地唤她：叶子，我终于等到你回来了！……

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To You :

Am writing this here instead of talking to you face to face because I don't dare to face you ..
Darling , I ain't a total computer-retard .. Trust me , I ain't angry at all .. Just felt kinda like betrayed .. Lols , not totally though .. Sorry for going through your folder . Didn't meant to look at your photos , was just browersing through for nothing because I was bored .. Was quite taken aback when I saw that her photos are gone so went & search .. Well , I saw the new name of the folder of her .. You shifted both folders to another place with another name .. I saw those names of those folders ..OhGod , I don't know what to type anymore but .. I am giving up ..

Labels: Damn ..

At Scotty's house now with Scotty , Kelvin , RongJun & Qin . Went & find Charles & DarrenLim at RivervalePlaza for KFC breakfast . Get quite disgusted at both at them cause of some reasons ..
Went & find Scotty & Rodney at Scotty's house & dabao duck porridge with extra duck . Cute .. Slack around till like I don't know what time & fell asleep .
Woke up finding Kelvin sleeping beside Scotty ..!! OhMyGod ! My stead is actually sleeping beside another guy ! Yea , woke up & went to Fernvale's NTUC to buy food for our steamboat .. Steam boat -- an 'un-boat' boat that ain't steaming but boiling -- . Ok , crap .
Bought about like going $50++ stuffs .. (T_T) And yea , now 1 stupid pig is looking at me typing ^^ Ok , so took a bus back to Scotty's house . Saw this irritating cum disgusting guy who slept in the bus & bloody took up 2 seats . asshole .. And now , the room is crowded .. Ok , so yea ..
Went up Scotty's house and started preparing those stuffs .. And yea , I am sleepy .. OhGod , trust me , there are ALOT of food .. =.= & I am sleepy .. Wondering if I am able to even get to my bed today .. This is a diffcult question because I miss him ! ^^ & HE IS SMILING ! AM I EVEN TALKING ABOUT HIM ?!!!

Labels: ok .. I am talking about Scotty .

Just a quick post . I want to watch Alice In Wonderland really .. And , it isn't like I don't know who is the mistress of your heart darling .. ^^ Ogosh , hungry , had been sleeping since like 4pm in the afternoon till now .. I can be a pig man ..

Labels: Oh baby, what you'd promised me

At Scotty's house now . Just accompanied him to the dental at Compass . He is lying on the sofa outside while I am in his room using lap ^^ Wahahahas ! Actually was cause seeing him in pain makes me kinda , cried ? Yea ..
Went to Jeremy's house's coffee shop there to eat Nasi Lemak just now . Trust me , although the portion of everything is little but it is like so damn fucking nice . Hinted some funny stuffs to all of them about this particular person & they agree with me even though they didn't know who am I pointing at . Dumb .
Met up with Scotty after that & cab down to Compass . Went to the Post Office & Dental . Lazy to emphases just that Scotty is so afraid of dentist worx ! Cab down to his home .


Actually I know & I understand . It had always been her .. I tried to hold your hand just now but you push me away . I know it hurts *obviously* & I don't blame you for pushing me away *when one is in pain , they won't hope to be touch by others* but it hurts you know ? It hurts to be push off for trying to help .
You check my inbox & outbox again . I never blame you neither do I mind you for looking because I know I didn't did anything wrong but you check my log .. Seriously , are you afraid that I am like messaging other people ? I didn't ..
I kept my promise . I didn't look at your msg ..
I don't know , starting to doubt . Really , what am I to you ? I really really fall for you but , am I just like .. some kind of 'replacement' ? Maybe I don't even have the req. to replace her .. Damn !

Labels: I am sleepy .., Ogod

其实说真的 ，对于你莫些方面的信任已经开始动摇了 。你说我三不五时便和男生联络 ，那你呢 ？或许你会说 ：都是那些女生主动联络你的 。那我呢 ？男生主动联络我你就会摆脸色给我看 。

现在不是在责怪你还是什么而是 … 不知道 。你不能完全怪我慢慢地对你感到不安 。毕竟你曾经 delete 过你的 message 。

而且 ，我知道 ，其实在你心里 ，她还是存在的 。虽然你每次都口口声声说你爱我可是我真的真的不知道该如何相信你 。因为我知道 ，你对她的回忆已经是深深地埋在心里了 。这份感情不是任何人能轻易替代的 。两年的时间不是短的也不是假的 。

我很感谢 ，很感谢你对我的诚实 。谢谢你对我的坦白 。要是换成其他男生 ，他们一定会说已经完全忘了旧情人 。所以我真得非常高兴你对我说其实你还是会想起她的 。我也非常感谢她让你拥有一段美好的回忆 。毕竟你经历的东西真的太多了 。

和你在一起的这段时间 ，我深深地感受到外界对你的压力 。看见这样的你 ，我真的很心痛 ，真的好想和那些人好好聊聊 ，让他们知道其实你是一个有用的人 ，一个需要人家注意的老孩子 。

你知道吗 ? 我真的真的好想好想你 。从来没有一个人像你这样对待过我 。那天 ，当你告诉我说要是我一踏出那个门 ，就再也不要回头了 。当时我真的真的真的感到很害怕 ，很彷徨 。我舍不得 ，我真的放不下你 。我知道 ，当时若我真的踏出那门而你去追我 ，我们之间的感情一定会受到波折 … 我不想也不要 。所以一向我行我素的我 ；被迁就惯的我 ；厚着脸皮地留下来 。留下的不只是我的人 ，也有我的心和我的尊严 。

那时和 Rachel 她们吵架 ，不管怎样 ，我都不愿意道歉 。可是因为你 ，就因为是你 ，我留下了 ；我真的留下了 。一直以来 ，都是人家迁就我 ，人家让我 。可是为了你 ，我一直尽量让步 。

我的自尊非常地强 ，可是一知道你生气了 ，我便不知不觉地感到害怕 。很多时候 ，都是我主动和你沟通 ，主动对着你笑 。每次只要你在 ，我的眼神都回不受控制地望向你 ，只是你不知道 。

我知道 ，在你心里 ，其实你还是对她心动的 。和我在一起或许只是纯粹的熟悉感 。或许在我身上你能够找到那么一点点她的影子 。爱上的 ，其实不是完全的我 ，而是那一部分拥有和她相同味道的我 。或许你只是想在我身上寻求那份故人的熟悉感 ，但这样就足够了 。

写了那么多 ，想了那么多 ，唯一的理由便是我真的真的恋上你了 … 就算知道有一天你会离开我 ；就算知道我或许是她的替代品 *有可能连替代都不够资格* 但是这样就够了 。

谢谢你在我生命中出现 。我真的好爱你哦 ~!!


mmmuack !

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Woots ! Just finish helping Qin do her tagggy-boxiie & posting pic ^^ How smart can I be like seriously ! Muahahaha ! Anyway , went back to North Vista Sec yesterday to collect my testimonial & etc .
Going back to school is like so oh-my-god-I-am-actually-back-here-again ; feeling . Was planning to go back with Scotty but he didn't want to go because of his tooth-y aching =.= So I went back alone & meet Qin , Johnson & Jeremy there . Took my book back & started reading the testi. and all of them are lies !! It wrote there saying I was friendly & etc which is like , no ? Lols ..
Went to Library with them while waiting for Scotty to come . Crap with AuntieMaMa .. Had been a long time since I crap with her , kinda miss school days . And I get bang by this stupid Sec 4 girl , asshole =.= Told Scotty & he went and ask that girl's friend . She said she 'accidentally' bang onto me & Scotty believed her =.= What the FUCK ! If he didn't notice or don't know about this but , I ain't those people who goes around finding people troubles . So why would I complain to you if she didn't did it on purpose ? Never mind , after that waited for Jun & Sheena for recess , saw MdmQin & kinda like 'talk' to her too .. Throw a tiny winy temper on Ros because she ignored me (T_T) Waited for Scotty & Johnson to end their bball game then after that went to Scotty's house . Was planning to go watch Alice In Wonderland but Scotty had a Toothache so didn't get to watch ! Saded ! I really really want to watch it man ! Saded !
Today woke up early early then went and cook porridge ^^ After that took a cab down to Scotty's house to deliever that stupid porridge . And he didn't even smile at me . Poor me , raining so damn hard & I still deliever that stupid porridge yet I didn't even recieve a thankx . Hymph . Planning to go to the dental with Scotty but I fell asleep from like 11am+ till 7pm+ . Oh my god ! And guess what had Scotty been doing ........ Dota =.= What the hell ?!! Dota sux man ! Grr .. Went down 308 meet Jun & had dinner & homed ^^ And here I am ^^ lala ~

Labels: Scott sux (exclaimation mark) He is dota-iin again . Ass

Ok , here it is , I change my skin & link again .
Seriously speaking , this bloody damn new blog caused me like many many hours with many many interruption from some people .

原本是有很多东西要 post 上网的 。可是呢忙到都懒惰了 …
这最近真的 ，发现和很多人都失去联络了 ；也得罪了不少人 。而且连他们和她们都没在主动联络我了 。

其实是懂原因的 。只是自己一直不想去改变那原因 。
因为害怕 ，害怕只要原因被改善 ，自己将会失去 …

Labels: 你答应的我都记得

With The Fucked-up Attitude , Poh Hong Is My Great Name But Most Known Me As Bee !
Oh Please ; I Didn't Copy From Anyone But Had Been Called A Bee Since I Was Born !
Being A Cancer-rian , I Am Sensetive , Intuitive, Possessive & Clingy !

I Am Bitchy ; Full Of Fucking Attitude & Scores Flying-Colors In The Swinging of Mood !
So Bloody Fuck-off If You Are Trying To Fool With Me Before I Bites Your Head Off !
Don't Try To Tame Me Because Only My Daddy&Mummy & Scotty Can !
Oyah , To Some Fuckers Out There ; I Ain't That Stupid ^.^ !

Those that are cunning aren't scary ; those that seems innocent are .
Fuck others before they fuck you . This is a cruel world , babies !



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